To the Daughter I Will Never Know

Written for Eliana, the baby who was promised to us. Her birthmother decided to parent her.

To the daughter who I'll never know,
who never belonged to me.
I have nothing to show
for all my agony.

How can I grieve this loss
when you were never mine?
Why do I feel as though
I've run and left you behind?

How do I say goodbye,
when I never said hello?
Why is it I cry
for one I'll never know?

I felt you grow inside of me,
but you were never there.
I longed for you to be with me,
and show you how much I care.

The questions I have will never end,
I'll never understand
why God took you away from me
before I even held your hand.

To the daughter who I'll never know,
Please let me say one thing.
I love you more than you'll ever know,
and I'll see you in my dreams.

Love,
Me

© Heather Antoine