Burial

Today I close the door of the nursery
I have kept for you in my heart.

This is from the book, "Children of Open Adoption" It is for the unborn child of an infertile couple.

I can no longer stand in its doorway.
I have waited for you there so long.
I cannot forever live on the periphery
of the dream world we share,& you
cannot enter my world.

I have fought to bring you across the
threshold of conception & birth.
I have fought time, doctors,devils &
God almighty.
I am weary & there is no victory.

Other children may someday live in my
heart but never in your place.

I can never hold you. I can never really
let you go. But I must go on.
The unborn are forever trapped within the
living but it is unseemly for the
living to be trapped forever by the
unborn.

© E. Van Clef